The Stories Of Us

25 May 2012 @ 11:39 pm

Finally 19. LOL. Not that I care much, since I stopped celebrating it already. But cousin just told me that I need to be at least 21 to stay out till after 1. According to her, Grandma used to sit at the door waiting for her even when she was 20+ yrs old. Haha. Next year I will be out of my teens. Haha. To be honest, without the wishes, I might even forget my own birthday. But this year's feel like just another normal day. Which is good! Cause that is what I want. Don't be nice to me just because it's my bday today. I find it no point.

& the reason why I stopped celebrating it was because in the olden days, food was scarce, healthcare was poor. The reason why people celebrate their bday is because it means you actually managed to survive one year. But now, life is good! Plenty of food, healthcare is also good. Really have no reason to celebrate it now. Make sense? Haha. Well, it make sense to me.. Hehe.

And I recently gotten an eye-candy! Hehehe. REALLY DAMN CUTE. HEHE. Okay, not going to say much about my ec. Because it is for me to know only!! hehehe. BYEEEEE~

P.S: Growing old is mandatory, but growing up is optional. I choose not to grow up.

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15 May 2012 @ 01:14 am

IMY

Worse day of this month. A friend passed away a few weeks ago, and nobody knows about it till her brother contacted one of us. She got leukemia... And didn't tell us. She was all the way at brentford.. she couldn't get to a computer because the doctors stopped her because the infrared waves was harmful to her body. ):

You were like a sister to me, ever after I went mia on you for a short time, you still welcome me and my rants with open arms. Why why why? You were a doctor too, why couldn't you save yourself? How could you go off without any goodbye? ): Don't you know the worst kind of goodbyes are the silent goodbyes.. Leaving us without a word.. It hurts so much I can't even say a proper goodbye to you... ):

D. J Wells, You will always be missed. ): Rest in peace.

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depressed

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17 December 2011 @ 02:16 am

Time..

Time

You never have enough time when you need it but you seems to have a lot of it when you don't.

It's one of the most taken-for-granted things in this world. Why? Because we kill time all the time by doing pointless things like playing Tetris Battle on facebook or taking a nap. But the thing about time is that while it's easy to kill/waste, you can never get back the timing for certain things once it's passed.

I'm really sorry, I wasn't there when you are gone. I'm sorry I cant cry.. I just cant believe you are gone. So fast.. With a ring of the phone, bad news arrived, you were gone. At this rate, I'm not going to pick up any phone calls anymore.

2011 - A year that is full of tests for me. Daddy's cancer, Grandma's injury etc, and now your death.. I shall take all this as a major exam. To test how strong I really am. And also to build me into becoming a stronger girl. Funeral starting.. I have no idea what I'm going to do from now on. I really wish you can be back here by our side, listening to the jokes you make, learning something every single time you talk to us, seeing you smile will be just enough for me. But I gotta be contented. Seeing you go in peace, will make my heart at ease.

Please rest in peace..
You will always be in our heart. <3

Current Mood: crushed

crushed

Current Music: Unstoppable Tears - SNSD Jessica

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19 October 2011 @ 11:03 pm

Nothing Last Forever.

Nobody really know how i feel right there, at that moment. The feeling of being let down once again, the moment I see your face and body language, I knew it before the actual words came out of your mouth. But I guess it hurts more because I didn't expect this disappointment coming from you. I thought you were somebody I could trust, Yeah, I guess I should just think harder right? My fault luh, my fault. My fault for thinking that you ain't such a person. Maybe I shouldn't trust others so easily. Or maybe I shouldn't even trust anyone. That way i won't get hurt anymore. FOR SURE. I came to this world alone & I'm going to leave this world alone. So I guess this means best to be alone.

No matter what I have achieved, it will all be forgotten in the future.

So maybe this is what we really are like: a shooting star. Like burning debris, we made our presence known in a small space allotted for us. We lighted up the sky, but only for a second and vanish without a trace afterwards. With each and every waking second, the world takes away a small piece of us until we got nothing left. Regardless of it being a big chunk or a small fragment, regardless of it being a major loss or minor deprivations, I don't care whatever it is, no matter how important it is, we will all silently accept it afterwards.

So many unspoken words get lost and they are swept away into the drains like dead leaves. Right now, I feel like a dead leaf, useless, uncared for & all alone.

Current Mood: crushed

crushed

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16 October 2011 @ 01:46 am

Friends, Or more than friends?

Okay, I admitted. I don't like it at all. I don't like it when you started to distance yourself from me. I thought we are friends? Then why this? So what now? If I really don't wanna talk to you, I would have distanced myself when I realized you like me. But i didn't. Because I cherish this friendship between us. I don't know what's your feelings/thinking towards me now. And you can't expect me to ask you directly right? So please, don't do this to me. This heart of mine, cannot take it anymore. We are like an on-off friends. You had no idea how much I worried over you. You didn't wanna talk to me? Fine with me. But this friendship between us, I really can't let go. Why must things end up like this? Just because I gotten myself a boyf? Those 5 words you said to me, you have no idea how much it hurt me. But I guess, it was partly my fault. ): I could see you were trying to run away, but I kept on holding on to you. I have been thinking for so so so so long. Everything has to end someday, I cant avoid it anyway, so I guess this is it? I choose this, so I can't regret/complain. Thanks for the memories.

Current Location: Singapore, Singapore

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confused

Current Music: If I die young.

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12 October 2011 @ 12:46 am

Alone.

Yes yes yes yes, I admit I'm cheesy at times. But I guess nobody really know why. I guess speaking from the bottom of my heart = cheesy. Isn't that what most people wanna hear? Heartfelt words. Funny how I'm saying it but nobody believes. Maybe this is life? People rather believed in lies, and not truth. I admit I do have a lot of friends. But how many close friends do I have, now that I can count easily. I dislike it when people assumed they knew me very well, but hell no, they don't.

( Read more... )

Okay, i guess this is it. Somehow, I can feel that my body is slowly changing. It isn't what it is. Hopefully, it isn't deteriorating. Nope nope, I'm not sick, just that my body is becoming weaker. Am not going to tell anyone about it. I doubt anyone reads my lj anyway. Life & death is predetermined, you can't escape death if it wanna hunt you down. Final Destination have been telling us that since forever.

& I really like it when people dotes on me. I guess everybody likes that. Which is why i dote on all my close friends.

Current Location: Singapore, Singapore

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30 September 2011 @ 10:29 pm

Worries

I have no rights, absolutely no rights. Why does everything vanish without a word? I have no idea & I dk what to do right now. And to be honest, I really had no rights to be doing this. and I'm kinda regretting it. but I'm afraid what will happen if I do what I really feel like doing now.

We barely have time to meet. Not even on your birthday. :/ why not stop it before it get too deep? I dk I dk. I don't want to do it but still... I got to do it. I'm just afraid it might hurt you and our relationship. :/ are we able to remain as friends after this? Don't get me wrong, it isn't us, it is just that something had happened. So I had to let go. :/ I shouldn't have let it happen in the first place. But the problem is that I dk how to say it. I rather you are the one who say it first. I rather you blame me. :/ maybe I should let you hate me? :/

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27 August 2011 @ 09:49 pm

Just Another Update

Been so long since I updated. Life is hectic, but it is nothing compared with my awesome 9 girls' schedules. Maybe I should stop complaining about how hectic my life is. Alright, to be honest, I'm in a holiday mood right now. And it is the wrong mood to be in since I have my last paper next week. Not the right time seriously. Lol. And I have yet to start studying for it. Oh well, I think imma regret it when my results comes out. But then life is too short for regrets. Lol. Oh well, I will just accept anything life gives me. Alright, since I'm kinda bored right now, maybe i should go read up on Databases.

Current Mood: bored

bored

Current Music: Unstoppable Tears - Jessica

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30 July 2011 @ 03:19 pm

The same topic yet again.

Saturday spent at home alone with daddy. Ankle injured and couldn't really go anywhere. Turns out my mama have the same thinking as Jiang Ling. Leg injured dont go anywhere lah. ): Make me a sad girl. But nevermind, since now im the head of the family, it is my duties to look after this house and the people in it. I just realised i cant be left alone. Because when i do, i start to think about him. and when i think about him & his future, i will start to tear. I really dont wanna lose him. Im even willing to lose 10 years of my life just to get him back to the way he used to be. That's how much i love him, although i dont show it.

( As usual..... )

To be honest, i have been taking so much care of myself too. Cause im afraid it might hit me too. Brother is already taking care of himself so i dont have much to worry about. 3 types of fruits everyday, and it struck me at how long it have been since i ate kfc/mac/popeyes etc. I even hardly snack now, even if my mouth is itchy and i need to munch on something, i will choose sour plums instead of tibits. I drank more and more plain water, and the occasional vitasoy. Hehe.

Classmates are waiting for me to recover so we can go eat thai food & seafood together. Haha. Imagine their faces when i told them doc said i need 1 month to recover. HAHAHA. They began to rush me to go see the doc often already. And i told Weicheng that i dont know how to peel the shells of the prawns and crabs etc. His reply: "千金小姐 leh you. I help you peel i help you peel. Arbo you dont eat. HAHA." So evil can. I dont eat = he eat more.

Oh well, time for lunch. hehehe. And to be honest, i didnt see the doc today. ): BYEEEEEE.

Current Mood:

restless

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28 July 2011 @ 08:51 pm

LOL.

Like a sad girl im right now. LOL. Livejournal isnt working for me, so tada. Im back to blogspot for the time being. As usual, imma move everything to livejournal when it is back up. Luckily for me, i have 5 blogs for me to hop around and to use. 3 days of vball straight. The feeling me like. How i wish everyday is like that. Dont need study, just have to game whole day long. That will be my fav day i swear.

Lack of sleep seriously, have been late for the whole of this week. But thankful for that ankle of mine, im perfectly excused. Hehehe. Even to the extent that classmates even used my ankle as an excuse to take our time during breaks. hehe. Me like still. Last day of bandages tomorrow. Oh well, i still refused to see the doc this sat. Who knows, he might make it worse. Doctor very scary one you know. Though it is still hurting but still.... I believe it will recover on its own. All injuries recover on its own one leh. This stupid ankle will recover too. I promise. (: Plus everytime i see it i go sian half immediately.

Oh well, i gave up. Shall go to sleep le. Seriously tired. ): Not enough sleep. Wan an! (:

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